When Do You Feel The Most Like Yourself?

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When it’s raining outside and I’m inside my room,
looking down at my book;
only once in a while gazing outside…when it thunders,
when I hear a dog bark, or a honk of the car.

When I’m around my best friend,
who laughs at my jokes,
smiles at me — genuinely,
makes me laugh as well,
and assures me with his eyes that I’m no stranger to him — and neither to the world.

When I’m at my desk,
writing, and writing, and writing until my fingers bleed,
until my heart lightens,
and until my shoulders feel as if they are now weightless.

I feel the most like myself when I look in the mirror at night,
and watch the tears slowly drizzle down,
while I brush my teeth and realize that no matter how many tears I shed,
the world will continue to revolve,
the people will continue their day,
and life will continue until God tells it to stop.

I feel the most like myself,
when I message my friend a ‘I’m not doing okay…’
and he replies, “it’s okay, everything’s going to be alright.”