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I fell in love, and I didn’t know it,
I didn’t realize what I was going through,
the rapid beating heart,
the thoughts that lingered in my head,
it was all too much for me,
all too tiring for me.
I don’t understand why people fall in love,
because as far as I know,
it hurts.
it hurts when your heart doesn’t stop upon seeing him,
hurts when he talks to another girl,
or smiles at another girl,
or doesn’t reply to your common ‘how are you’ messages.
Is this how everyone feels?
Because I hate it.
I fell in love and I hate it.
I also hate the fact that it’s a one-sided love.
Me with my own imagination,
it’s like a kid playing dollhouse and having a tear party all by herself.
I fell so dumb,
so childish,
to even like someone way above my level,
to love someone who is so far away,
to love someone who might not even know I exist…
I fell in love,
and I…
you know what? I kind of like it.
